the only place i can think of to begin is with this, i act like an outcast at my school. though i really am not my personality has led people to the point where they don’t really care about me, i am just there. it eats me up inside, everyday i want to finally just break down and be a normal person like everyone else, but i can’t bring myself to it. however, i think i would have eventually been able to come out of my shell if it wasn’t for one thing that has driven me insane, i fell in love with a absolutely beautiful girl at my school. i have never talked to her before, although i have talked to few other people excluding my close friends, and every time i see her, walk by her, or think about her, my entire body shakes and i feel completely overwhelmed. everyday i think about how things would be if i told her, if she would think weirdly of me, some guy who never talks to anyone all of the sudden pouring his emotions on you. at this point in my life, the shear thought of her seems to be the only thing keeping me going…
