It’s the last week of my first year in university, and last night I slept with my tutor. I’m 18, he’s 47. I’m in a long term, 4-year relationship, but it didn’t feel like cheating, even though I think I might just be deluding myself. It was insane. Really, really insane. Like, he did things to me that no one else had before, even my boyfriend. I’m not going to see him for three months now, and he’s not technically my tutor anymore, because the semester ended yesterday. We’ve been really close all year, really good friends, and I always fantasised about sleeping with him. Now that I actually have, I don’t really know how to feel. He wants to do it again, and I need to stop myself from doing it again. Not because I don’t want to, but because I love my boyfriend too much. A part of me thinks I’ll do it again though.
