I am lonely, 20, never had a girlfriend with gynecomastia. I have gained over 4 stone over 2 years due to my depression. The weight gain has also brought my confidence down. I have tried going to the gym, and losing weight; which I did, but still back to square one. I have just lost the will to exist. I also think about how I will just a alone.
I am currently studying an integrated masters degree. My grades have just dropped over these last 6 months. I have just lost all interest in my major, I also think about how in 5 years time I would be working just to survive. I just want someone to just kill me quickly without any pain. I have ODed before, but I am still here. I don’t even have the balls to do it myself. Then I also feel selfish to my parents and friends if I do go. I would happily give my life to someone I have never met as I was brought up in a home were my parents are medical practitioners. I just can’t find anything worth living for anymore.
Maybe in 2 years time you may hear of my death, just wanted someone to just here why I have decided to go.
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Don’t kill yourself. You’ll regret it.
Life is ugly and twisted, but it is also beautiful. You should stay on this earth to see.
Hmm IF he kills himself he will be dead and can’t regret anything!!
Just saying!
Wait for the beautiful things in life, things do get better, but It never seems like it at the time. you have years ahead of you for things to get better. everyone experiences ups and downs in their lives, its normal, we learn lessons from all the lows and some peoples lows are lower than others. You aren’t alone, that’s one of the things I can tell you, there are millions of people on this earth that suffer with many different forms of depression. you cant expect anyone to help you unless you help yourself first, there are so many people that can help you in the world. I hope you find peace x
I’m at BMI 34 at age 13 (maxed at 230 lbs recently, I’m 5’9), have severe man boobs, and I have eight mental disorders; AS, three panic/anxiety disorders, bipolar 1, ADD, and OCD. Don’t give up.