I’ve been with my husband for eight years. I’m 24, he’s 25, and I have always adored him and hated cheaters. But this new guy in our life has me fantasizing about him constantly. I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t help but notice the obvious extreme chemistry between me and this new guy! I love my husband too though, even though he has trouble expressing his love for me.
I can’t stop thinking about his face, how nice he is to me, how funny and expressive he is, and how much I want to kiss him. I don’t even have the urge to sleep with him right now, I literally just wish I could split into two people and have both lives.
I don’t understand how it’s possible to feel love with two people, the only thing I can think of is that it’s not love with this new guy, it’s infatuation, especially because I’m probably only seeing his good side. But it’s so strong, the butterflies are extreme and almost nonstop. I know if my husband felt this way about another woman it would crush me, and it makes me want to stop feeling this way! I can’t picture myself leaving my husband…but the thought of never getting to at least kiss this new guy is killing me, even though I’m sure that would only lead to wanting more!
