For the past three years, I always get moody and short tempered with my family the closer to new years eve we get. I hate when they ask me whats wrong because I know they don’t care. They always blow it off and say its a stupid reason to be upset or ridicule me and make me feel worse.
I sat away from everyone, but close enough they couldnt say anything. I didnt even get up to clink drinks. I said I wished the sparkling juice was real alcohol and they laughed like I was joking. I wish they would take genuine concern instead of what they do.
My new years night always ends in tears and I’m so tired of the hurt. I’m tired of feeling like a stupid teenager.
I have hated new years for eight years because it reminds me how my family is broken and what a failure I am. I just want to have one happy new years eve. just one.
