So I’m screwed up. I’m in love with one of my closest friends and I can’t contact him because he isn’t in the country and doesn’t own a phone. We are in a messy triangle. Him (x), me and my best friend(y). I lied to him and told him that I didn’t like him that way when he asked me because I was afraid of him leaving me. I have a problem with people leaving me. My Dad left me a week before I turned 18 and he took half of my family with him. And it was all because I wanted him to stay out of my private life. Then a week after x was forced to leave because he was committed to a mental hospital.. and that leaves us here now… Guess I just wanted to say that I miss them all a whole lot.
