I was in love with this guy, the perfect guy. But he didn’t show any kind of interest. So I started dating one of my best friends in the world. It was foolish and selfish. And one day, this other guy appeared and said he was finally interested in me. I didn’t want to be with him anymore, but I knew I just couldn’t keep dating my friend because I didn’t feel the same way he did and it was unfair to him.
Now he’s in other state. And I realized that I love him. I miss him so much. We talk, a lot. We send each other e-mails and texts. Now we’re doing this Anti-valentine’s day thing where we’re planning chatting all night, seeing some lame movie online and stuff like that.
This morning I made a joke. “Shut up, you say that because you don’t have a heart” and he answered me: “I don’t have it anymore. It’s been stolen from me. I don’t want it back, anyway. I love where it is now.”
I want to be with him. I want to tell him that I love him. But I just lost that right. It would be unfair to him. He will meet some pretty girl and she’ll love him. And I feel stupid. We’re no kids. He’s in college. I lost him and it’s my fault.
