I sometimes think that the world would be better off without me. I don’t have any special skills. I don’t have really close friends. I have a husband who is great, but sometimes I don’t feel super in love with him. I love my kids more than anything in the world, but I can’t cook, or sew, or garden, or play piano, so what would I even teach them? They’re young and they’d get used to another mom. They wouldn’t remember me. Ever since I became a stay-at-home mom I feel so boring. I don’t blame people for not wanting to hang out with me. I exercise 3x a week, I try to be healthy, I try to find joy in serving in my church and in life. But all I feel is melancholy and loneliness. I’m not planning to do anything drastic about this. I just wanted to get it out there.
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sweetie you don’t have to do anything but show your kids love and give them advice (when they need it most) and you’ll be better than probably 70 percent of moms out there. btw those who cannot do- teach or so goes the saying. just ask the fuckers that grade my homework. anyhow.. it is never too late to learn something new. kick the sadness and enjoy that people depend on you to survive in this life. much love.
dont feel so down on yourself ask someone for help tell your husband and your children will miss you the are your blood and they need you dont give up
We can learn to sew…even to love. But to love ourself is the hardest in the world. I live a life that’s blessed and high profile. I keep a razor in my wallet and take it out at night. You have a husband and kids. Learn what you want to know. Love them because they will hate your memory if you kill yourself. I speak from experience. Perhaps it’s time we both get help. Everybody gets to this point. It will pass
I blame the media that makes people think if their lives aren’t full of excitement, then they’re doing something wrong. I’m a stay-at-home dad with three kids, and I also had problems adjusting to the monotony of this lifestyle. But then I realized I was at my unhappiest when watching TV or listening to the radio – when I felt like everyone else was rubbing it in my face how exciting their life was compared to mine. Tune out. You’ll feel better.