I keep telling my friends that I’m no longer interested in this girl that I felt like I maybe possibly had a chance with some time ago who I’m still really good friends with.
The truth is I’m still crazy about her, and the only reason I tell my friends that is because I’m a f****** worthless coward that fears rejection. Once I learned that my friend really liked her, I felt like an unworthy piece of filth so I backed off. Things were awkward between us for a while, but now we’re kind of close again, not like before, but it feels really nice. My problem is that I would feel extremely guilty for trying to pursue a relationship because my friend really likes her and has made that clear, I would feel extremely selfish because I already had a chance and blew it, and lastly, I still feel like an unworthy p************.
I’m trash
