I am happily married. My husband truly loves me and I love him completely. I have a male friend I have known for 20+ years. We have both discussed how we think of each other as family and that theres nothing attracting us to each other. Lately something feels different. He smiles at me more..Keeps eye contact. He doesnt tease me as much and if he jokes at all with me he pulls back, like hes trying to not offend me. Whats more is for some reason I feel drawn to him. If he needs to step outside, I feel like I need to. If he has to be gone for long periods of time, I feel depressed. I will never jeopardize my marriage, and my husband has never been anything short of perfect. These feelings are keeping me awake at night.. His face slips into my dreams and when I see him the next day, he looks at me like he knows. Without trying, there are times when I think about him while sleeping with my husband. I cant and wont cheat, but these emotions are ruining me. I dont want to lose either of them.