I am quite an outgoing person. I put up this happy and carefree face in front of people and friends, it has become part of me, I do it with so much ease that it’s now embedded in my subconscious. Truth is I am always lonely. Someone I’m seeing was diagnosed with prostate cancer last year. Recently he’s getting colder because things are getting worse for him. He has now almost lost his s***** ability and desire. But I love him for who he is, nothing about the s** whatsoever. Every time I think about the notion of him leaving, it saddens me. I have a good life – I cannot ask for more considering how far I have come. I thank God for that. But sometimes I have no one to turn to to share my real feelings. Friends seem to have their thing going on, and I’m happy for them. With so much going on, and internal conflicts I am trying to reconcile, things aren’t easy. I have never felt so lonely in my life… My solution? Google “online confession” and this is the first site that popped up.

I look tough and cheerful from the outside, but give me a quite room any day and I can burst into tears in seconds. I am a man by the way.