I wanted so badly to have a baby when i was 19 yrs old. My fiance of the time used that against me, had to prove that i could keep up with a good s** life for him to consider us having a baby. He was 10 yrs older than me, moved us away from all family and friends, and i got a small dog. I enjoyed taking pictures of anything and everything, decided to buy baby socks to have my dog wear a pair for a few silly pictures.

I was looking at the socks when this pretty and fairly young woman stopped to look at the socks too. She was so sweet saying hello and started asking me if i was expecting b/c i was rather slender but was daydreaming about a baby. I shamefully admitted “I’m getting a pair of socks for my dog.”. Deep down i wanted to ask some questions about babies and how hard was it to be a mom. I had no one to talk to unless i went to my controlling fiance who verbally cut me down.

This lady stuck her nose up making an “ahh” sound as she turned around and walk away. That was one moment in life that i wished i could die. I played it as cool as i could possibly be, left the socks behind, slipped out of the store, went to my car, got in and cried my eyes out. I hated myself for longing for a baby and not understanding why or why my fiance didn’t want to have a baby with me.

Ladies out there- Its easy to judge young *girls* as we call it for them wanting a baby at such a young age, sometime that is when these *girls* might be in need of a real friend or a stranger to care enough to take a few minutes for them. Little did that lady know i had been wanting a baby for 6 yrs by that point.

From this experience, i do my best to not shun other people unless they do me wrong.