I’m a burden to everyone around me. It became very clear to me tonight that this is the case. Everything I try to do to improve myself and my situation fails, and my family and my friends suffer for it.

“I’ll be in debt until the day I die because of the loans I’ve taken out for you and your sister.”

I get it. I get that I wasted your money. I wish someone had told me this was my future if I pursued a silly dream, because it makes me sick, it makes me sad, and it makes me wish I’d never lived at all. If I hadn’t been around, you’d have had it much easier, and I’m sorry.