I got my first speeding ticket this morning. I wasn’t as nervous as I thought I’d be, but I was still shaking a bit. I felt like crying afterwards but never did because I feel like it is a normal experience and nothing to be too ashamed of. I’m not a reckless driver; I was just driving too fast. I don’t want anyone to know because I’d prefer to just pay it and forget about it. The thing is, I feel so crappy about it, and the fact that it is so surreal when it’s just a ticket tells me that I’m avoiding my feelings on the issue. I think the truth is that I just feel stupid and irresponsible, and I suppose it was those things to be speeding, but I know I’m a safe driver and feel like I need to prove myself but can’t. I feel silly confessing this at all, but I think I just need to, which is why I’ve opted for this anonymous thing. It’s like I’m in shock… Like I’m some kind of goody two-shoes. Like I said, I’m not reckless or dangerous, but I’m no angel I guess; I’m just too sensitive about some things. I kinda want to hear other peoples’ stories about getting tickets so I don’t feel as bad. I’m going to go look for some of those.