I have not been myself in a long time. I’m just an empty shell of who I used to be. At school I talk to no one. At home I stay in my room and blast music to drown out the horrible thoughts that come to my head. I am no longer myself because of the stupid choices I made. And all if the lies I told. I feel empty. Nothing. I believe it would be easier to die than to live. I would no longer be lost I would simply be gone. I do not believe in god so if he does exist then I’m not going to heaven. Anyways I think I would like it better in hell. But I prefer to just disappear completely. And no longer exist.