I love this guy and I shouldn’t. Something in him and me both are irresistibly attracted to each other but we also fight like crazy. I had to move out and now I’m dealing with the anger of all the mean s*** he put me through. Nobody can deny we had issues and were volatile. But somehow, sometimes, there are moments when we come together because we can’t seem to shake each other. And when we do, my mind, my heart go someplace else and we just forget the world exists and we experience each other in a way that is ethereal it seems. I don’t understand it. It is something undeniable and I have never had this with anyone, ever. Not even my children’s father. We can’t be together and being apart, it feels like something so deep inside is missing. He’s not good for me and I’m not good for him, it would seem on the surface. But it’s him I want. I want him. And I don’t want to give him up. So much hurt between us. Why can neither of us let the other go?
