You’re driving me f****** insane, C.. and you don’t even know it. Everyday I think about us.. what it’d be like. And more often than that, I think of us s*******. I have found myself listening to a guy who makes dirty talk audios, just because he sounds like you.. When he describes fantasies and talks about all the things he would want to do to “me” (his listeners), I pretend it’s you telling me.. and oh f***, does that drive me wild. The past few nights, I’ve had the most intense orgasms of my f****** life.. just thinking of us together.. of feeling the heat of your body against mine, the way your breath would feel against my skin, how your s** would smell.. Mm..~ I want you, badly. I ache for your touch… your … affections as well. Seeing your face, your message icon pop up.. it makes me smile like an idiot. I adore you. When we game together, I like to think about it and have caught myself almost calling you babe. I’m terrified of what it’d do to our friendship if you knew how I felt.. I can’t even reciprocate flirtatious comments toward you because I don’t feel like you’re serious, and I worry I’d sound too genuine.. But this is the truth… and if you come across this somehow, I doubt you’d even make the connection back to you and me. I wish you would just tell me that you feel the same way.. without my confession because there’s no way I could tell you.. -J