I don’t know what is going on. I’m going to be 40 next year and everything I was before is going by the wayside. Maybe it’s maturity and maybe because I just got out of a 5 year relationship that was very controlling. Nonetheless, I just don’t feel like burdening myself with stupid unwritten rules anymore. I want s**, I’m going to enjoy it and I’m not worried about whether I’m the ‘good girl’ anymore. I had s** with my roommate and told him not to get attached because I don’t want the responsibility of it and that I’m likely to hurt his feelings if he does and I am not putting up with it. The other night, I flirted with a guy at the bar and another one the next night. I have this sense of freedom in my place in life and in myself and it must definitely translate because I get a lot of male attention but don’t really care or define myself by it. I laugh and think, “This must be what it’s like to be a man!” I’m enjoying myself right now in life more than I ever have. I’m in shape, I’m not covering my gray, my kids are grown and out of the house and all I want to do is laugh. I feel… liberated, inside and out. And it is the best feeling ever.