i’m an alcoholic. i’ve been aware of this for some time, but i thought i could muscle through it. but it’s clear i’m not. currently on a 6-day binge sponsored by vacation days. i also have a 15yo daughter (single parent). i’m not an angry or crazy drunk, so there’s been no direct effect on her, so far. but, there’s no way she doesn’t know, if for no other reason than she usually throws away all my “empties”. i don’t even feel ashamed anymore – it’s like that emotion has been burned out. what i feel is sick. sick of this. and helpless. and afraid.
