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Two days ago I found out my crush likes me back. A lot. And his sister (my best friend) told me that he asked his mom some time ago when he was allowed to date me.
Part of me wants to tell him I like him back. I like him so much that my heart beats three times faster when we are in a room together. The other part wants me to keep it secret from him. I think the reason for the latter is that I’m 13. I don’t feel like I want to date anyone now. And I’ve always heard that you have to get your heart broken a couple times before you find the one. And I don’t want that to happen to us.
I’ve been praying about it. And I think he’s turned into an obsession. I don’t go 30 minutes without thinking about him. I started this technique where every time I think about him (unless for a specific reason) I think: I am ___, I let go of ___. It has sort of helped, but not a lot. I want him to know I like him back, but I don’t want a dating relationship.
Another thing is that the only person who knows about my crush is his sister. I’ve clarified that she has no problem with my feelings. I’ve been praying since I found out, but I want an answer now.
This crush feels like it could start a wonderful relationship. He’s Christian, he has the same political beliefs, we like A LOT of the same things without it being fake, he’s wonderful with children, and we see each other a lot(At least twice a week, which is a lot for a homeschooler). And because of his sister, I know the issues in his family, and avoid saying things that would otherwise be harmless.
To make things more complicated his sister (my friend) likes my crushes’ friend that likes me. (Yeah, I know) And I know that my crushes’ friend likes me because he pinched my side (playfully) and said, “Are you ticklish?” I then said, “No…well actually I am but…”
My crush saw that thing go down, and he knows that his sister likes that person. I made eye contact with my crush right after that, and tried to communicate that I was not interested. I’m not sure if the message got through.
My attraction to him is not physical, I am 100% sure about that. Not to say that he isn’t cute, but I don’t have s***** thoughts about him.
Right now I don’t think that telling him I like him would benefit anything, except reassuring him. And I want that to happen, but I DON’T WANT TO START A RELATIONSHIP!
I’ve liked him for 1 year and 6 months now. My affections have only grown over time.

Help!

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