I am addicted to p***. We don’t have s** because jerking off to p*** is easier. I am an alcoholic. Sometimes in the morning I have pains in my sides, probably kidney failure from drinking. I eat very unhealthy, today I ate a Whopper and a double quarter pounder for lunch and dinner. I am getting fat and sometimes I have chest pains.

I don’t tell anyone any of this. I am slowly killing myself.

I have withdrawn from all social contact. I stopped calling my friends and severed all ties. I am so depressed and I have no idea why. I just smile and act like everything is okay.