I haven’t been close to anyone in years, I’m a mental case who can’t stand to be around people much so i finally made myself go to the rub ‘n tug joint i always go by. I stood outside for like half an hour before finally going in, trying to get some balls. The girl was really nice but she wouldn’t stop talking about s**, I guess she wanted to get me into it for that extra tip. Its not like i wasn’t tempted but just getting touched was big enough and I felt like being friendly with her and not like every other guy who prob goes in there. I felt vulnerable enough, I’m usually terrified of people and she was already sort of aggressive in a weird way, not very good boundaries (obviously). She gave me a bottle of water on the way out though, I thought that was nice.