i’m in the middle of changing friendship groups at school. they do weed sometimes and i think im going to try it this friday. sunday is my birthday and i was invited to a sleepover. there’s no way my parents will let me go because there will be boys. i won’t be harming anyone or myself, i really hope i can go. i’m going to ask a girl if i can say im staying at hers to tell my dad. im not sure if it will work. i wish i wasnt always such a goody goody. i want to have good memories when im older, and i finally have the chance to be in a group of close friends that actually do things. my best friend moved to png. im in love with her and i felt so alone after she left. i still do. sometimes i wish my parents weren’t as strict. i hope i can go. theres also another one next friday for one of their birthdays. maybe ill ask dad if he can pick me up in the night. exams are this week too. i should be more stressed out. or maybe im so stressed im numb. wish me luck