My boyfriend is verbally abusive we live together and I don’t make enough money to get out on my own. I am terrible with money and I am not taking responsibility for myself.
I am a talented artist but not super talented. I am good enough to make money but I am not what I want to be. I struggle to motivate myself.
I guess you could say I’m clinically depressed and I’ve been on some form of ADD/ADHD medication since 2001.
I am slightly overweight and my boyfriend reminds me. I am sad. I think about suicide a lot and I’ve developed this lovely bulimic habit at night when my boyfriend is at work. I cook and look at recipes for hours and snack on junk food then I throw up while I watch netflix on my phone. I write out meal plans and recipes and menus for hours.
I don’t know what I am going to do for money next month when this gig is over. I feel worthless and stressed out.