I’m feeling very down and depressed again like I wish I was dead and want to self harm to end and deal with the pain. The truth is she doesn’t care about me and never did. Another one is that the other girl is famous, and while her light may not always shine she is still popular, and getting more popular by the day. By the time this is no longer happening it will be too late-literally years down the road. But eh, tbh it probably already is too late. I’ve been trying to be positive, accept myself, and change to make my life more bearable, but…….the struggle is so difficult. I feel like I take one step forward and two or three steps back. I feel hopeless-I’m barely hanging on.
