So I’m 15. I’m a dancer and studying to be a pastry chef. Everyone around me thinks that I’m doing just fine and that i have no problems. The truth is i have been cutting since 7th grade and i am now a sophomore in highschool which makes 3 years. I have horrible self esteem issues and really low confidence. I actually dont really believe in myself at all. I have attempted suicide 5 times and I’m ready for my 6th. Hopefully 6 is the magic number. I have been starving myself in hopes to be thin and beautiful. My start weight was 135 lbs. I am now down to 119 and it feels pretty good but my goal weight is 105 oh and btw I am 5′ 8″ I dont know where I’m going with this but yeah… i just wanted to get some things out