I feel so guilty I think now I’m starting to pay for it, I’ve been unexplainably sick for the past 3 weeks. I keep a lot of things to myself and that has hurt me. I have a great best friend which I feel very lucky for and a wonderful boyfriend but the truth is I lie to my family members for financial reasons because I don’t have a job, they know I don’t have a job and the reason I lie is to try and help everyone else but myself I know it’s not the right thing to do but I’ve been doing it for a while now and it’s hard to stop just yesterday one of my family members said they didn’t like liars and I didn’t say anything because I knew that I had lied on many occasions.

Also I have this girl that I really don’t like and I don’t like her for a good reason and even though she doesn’t bother me anymore what she did to me has scarred me for life, I’m able to forgive her but I’ll never be able to forget what she did. I just want to stop lying to my family members and start telling the truth but I’ve lied about so much I guess I would have to start from the beginning, I know it would probably make me feel better if I confessed the truth to my family.