I want to hurt living things. I have trained myself to refrain from hurting anything, but it’s always there in the back of my mind. Sometimes I’ll just be petting my cat or dog and a strong urge to hurt them will come over me. Usually I either i walk away or clench my teeth and maybe grab them hard by the scruff where it won’t hurt them until the feeling passes. The feeling also applies to humans. I have it under control now but I’m worried I will give in one of these days.