12 years
x
136 Views

I have no clue what’s going on and I hate it. I apologise for the long story –

I visited one of my old friends back in February and we had dinner, watched a movie in his room (student flat) and I ended up spending the night. I didn’t hear a whole lot from him for a while so I figured I was an idiot and got played.

So I never invited him to my birthday night out in March, which he then showed up to anyway at the side of a mutual friend who was invited. I ignored him for a bit, then we had an argument, basically the crux of which was he was never ignoring me in the first place, why didn’t I just say something to him, yada yada (to which I replied I had attempted contact and it hung in cyber air like a bad smell)

… Anyway we made up, he told me he wanted to take me on proper dates, we kissed and then he decided to tell another mutual (best) friend who was present (and has had history with me, and likes to sporadically exclaim his undying love for me – when his girlfriend is in the same room) anyway he told that guy that he loves me. Told him, not me… anyway everybody crashed at my flat that night, including this guy but nothing happened, he did stay and help clean in the morning to his credit.

So I had some conversation with this guy online, then maybe a week later we were meant to go to see a movie before he went on a night out (pre-planned), which he then cancelled because he had to much uni work to do, fair enough. Then get a text from a (different) mutual friend saying “hey come over, me and ***** are bored!” so I though – friend setting, this can’t be a b*********, no harm in hanging out, this is good. So I went, we watched movies and ate pizza and ended up asking mutual friend to go sleep on the couch in the living room (so classy, right? poor guy) and again I was taking the 34 back from his campus to mine the next morning…

Since this we have still had conversations via text or facebook chat but I haven’t seen him and its been a few weeks now…

I’m fine with casual but right now its casual gone cray-cray. Its that wishy-washy that I keep wondering if its stopped. Mainly I’m wondering what the hell I’m doing messing around with a guy that on the face of it at least has no interest in me

New Confession

Related Confessions