(To give you a better outlook on this; I am a 14-year-old girl. Okay, read on- ) Augh, this is horrible. I have a girlfriend, but I still have a crush on

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(To give you a better outlook on this; I am a 14-year-old girl. Okay, read on- )
Augh, this is horrible. I have a girlfriend, but I still have a crush on another girl. I have these strange fantasies about that other girl, and I feel terrible about it. I don’t know how to get her out of my head. And she’s taken too, by some chick in Canada.

It’s just- She told me she LOVED me once! And the next day, she took it all back! I stayed home from school that day, Hell, I nearly KILLED myself that day! It was terrible. And before I had my girlfriend.

Even with my girlfriend there, I still think about this girl. And she’s hanging out with this one chick. Just today in one of my classes, I had to go to the bathroom because all I was thinking of was how worthless I am, how she hates me, how no one could ever truly love me, how I should’ve been aborted. I thought it was other people talking, it was so damn scary. This had happened to me before, too.

I had to lock myself in a bathroom stall, I was a shivering, whimpering, screaming mess. I’m surprised no one came in to see what the f*** was going on. It’s horrid, and I don’t know what I should do. I don’t want to talk to my parents, they’ll be wasting their money. Sometimes I feel like I should just end it all. I was going to do it tonight, but I decided against it. For now, at least.

New Confession

I said this once and I’ll say it again. Not all mentally ill people are the same. Schizophrenic people DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING. So STOP SAYING THERE’S NO EXCUSE FOR THEM KILLING SOMEONE. Would you say there’s no excuse for a person calling you a bad name in their sleep? Would you say there’s no excuse for your child walking outside past midnight in their sleep? It’s NOT A THING OF THERE’S NO EXCUSE but the need to SHIFT THE FOCUS ON WHO TO BLAME. OUR GOVERNMENT NEEDS TO OPEN THESE FACILITIES BACK UP,THEY NEED A CAREGIVER TO BE SURE THEY TAKE THEIR MEDICINE, A GOOD DOCTOR THAT’S ON TOP OF THE PATIENTS SCHEDULE,RECOGNIZE AND ACCEPT THE FACT THEY ARE ILL NOT CRIMINALS!!!

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I f****** hate you (bf) , you f****** manipulative,hypocrite, emotionally abusive, vaping, life draining, wannabe player b******. I.HATE YOU. I still deeply resent you. This is why everyone thinks you’re an a****** at your job. You’re not some anti-hero that you claimed to be. No- You’re just an a******. Point blank . Especially to me of all people! You always take it out on me, and you still wonder why I won’t touch you like that or shut down completely with you. Everytime you sense or feel even an inch that im happy, peaceful, something I enjoy doing you immediately smash that down so you can feel better and have power over me. What’s funny is that every time you’re in the wrong, overstep your boundaries, make me really upset or talk crap to me – karma smacks you right in the face everytime & you don’t even realize it. Funny how you’ve said yourself that people spit at the sky just for it to come back-yet you’ve done the exact same thing too – you’re not godlike or safe from getting karma, even I’ve dealt with karma too when I was in the wrong many times too. So no- you’re not a misunderstood dark knight turn bad like the joker you claim to be. You’re just an egotistical bigoted jerk & everyone can see that except you. I hate myself that I fell for your facade – lovebomb trap years ago . And all the times that you’ve talked crap about other’s appearances, especially women’s, karma yet again smacked you in the face & put on a ton of weight and still wonder why you haven’t lost pounds but still continue on demanding me to cook & make you even more food despite you complaining about it , hmmmm , gee I wonder why. Anyways , glad to vent that out .