Forgive me, for I have sinned. Many months ago, I committed s***** acts of my cousin of 8 & I was 12. Twas mainly when he was asleep, dry h****** (is what it’s usually called) and my finger within the walls of his bottomside & gently touching his front portion…..I had also attempted to put my front portion into his bottom but failed to do so…..instead I just attempted to kiss him while sleeping (also failed). This continued for several months until it eventually stopped and instead, I made him (jerk) me off and put the end of my front portion, in his mouth (my underwear was on. Only once did I actually put my front portion into his mouth without underwear….I also forced him to watch s******* e***** scenes in videos&games and I masturbated in front of him. It’s been many months since I have done any of this and I swore that I would never do such a thing again for I too, was s******* abused. Now, I look.amongst my peers and I think (they are so innocent…..I always act as I’f they are doing something wrong by saying that their style of clothing usually referred to as “swag” and their late night parties. I often say to myself “they are not sick…….I am.” I have been filled with guilt ever since and I want it to go away but I can’t…..no one knows at all & my cousin isn’t showing any signs of remembering what happened. I don’t know what to do…I’m afraid to tell my parents because they are Mexicans so I could get a big a** whooping and I certainly don’t want to go to jail for years. What can I do to unravel this web of lies?
