I’m seventeen. A girl. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I’m definitely too tall for my age as well, and it doesn’t help that I’m a bit on the heavy side (not like round, just heavy, I don’t have that double chin thing, but I’m not something a normal girl would look like) Hence, I feel extremely awkward in my body. I never know what to do. Every time I move I always end up bumping into something or someone.

But that thing is (yeah okay judge me for this one) When I’m alone at our house, I practice knife throwing or fighting with the knives. I’m actually good at it on my first try, the knife stuck to the door exactly where I wanted it to. It wasn’t luck either since that’s what happens every time. I also thought myself kicks, I can do flips now as well. And the weird part is, when I do these things, I don’t feel awkward with my body. I love the rush it gives me and I enjoy the feeling of stabbing away with knives (I only stab air, doors, walls and pillows so don’t worry) I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I also want to be a soldier, or someone who gets proper training about these things, but my parents already set the goal for me to become a lawyer and I know they wouldn’t ket me be a soldier. EVER.

So yeah, I think I have ADHD but I’m not sure and I want to get myself checked but no one would believe me even if I asked for it