My step sisters boyfriend is 30 and i’m 16. He made me feel good. He called me beautiful and flirted within the first 3-4 times we met, we was kissing in the kitchen while my step sister was in the living area. It felt so wrong but so right. We was texting and almost, very nearly, got found out. I used to meet him after school and say i was staying behind for extra work to my mum. The thing that annoys me, is, he isn’t even good looking. He is ugly in fact. But he bought me things, called me things and DONE things to me I’ve never had before. But then… I felt sick. I felt sick to my stomach every time i saw or got a text from him. I said to him “ive thought about what we are doing, and it is the highest level of wrong” and then continued to suggest “we NEED to stop”. Not only has he got 2 children ages 1 and 2 with her but he is engaged to her. He said he loved me, and wanted to run away. I cant do this anymore. She still doesn’t know, and this is around 6 months down the line. I stopped it for good, this was after sleepless nights and really depressive episodes, to now sit here with a loving boyfriend. He is 18, and makes me feel as good, if not, better than he did. But he still texts me. “I love you beautiful” and “we could never be friends, we have to be more”. So i text back, I said ” im with *** now and he is amazing, leave me alone” to then receive a reply of “F*** sake, stay the f*** away from us”. I was so involved with their kids, i watched their first step and first word, woke up at 3am changing nappies and refilling bottles and watching them sleep, thinking what the f*** am i doing to their lives. But he has thrown it back in my face. He said im not seeing them as long as he lives anyway. I dont love him, but i dont want to break my step sister and him up… for the kids- mostly. And i dont want my sister to think im disloyal. I dont know what to do. help? or up above will be my only way out… This is going to ruin me…