We met in 2008 and from the very first moment I laid eyes on you, I can honestly say, I’ve never been the same. I mean, I’d never met anyone like you before and as soon as you came into my life, I realised almost instantaneously what my life had been missing. You were so beautiful, so kind and warm, you were everything I wanted. Darling, I’ve never wanted someone so much as I wanted you and for a while, everything was going really well. We spoke endlessly for hours on end about our favourite bands and films and over time, I began to get to know the real you. You let me into a world not many people (if anyone) had been before and pretty soon, you were sharing all of your doubts and fears with me. I’ll never forget when you said to me;
“I’ve never felt this way about a boy before.”

Anyway, that was years ago now and these days, you don’t even know if I exist. You probably don’t even remember me, but it’s fine. I just wanted to say, I know I’m totally crazy and I know you will never know this, but I’ve never stopped loving you. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of you. I feel like a creep just saying it, but I check your Facebook page from time to time just to see how you’re getting on. You always seem to look even more beautiful than I remember, it’s strange. I can’t let you go, I’ve tried and tried, but you are all that I know. When I’m scared, I think of you and it calms me down or when I’m on my own, I think of you to make me feel less alone. You define me. Remember when you said that ‘500 Days of Summer’ was about us? Well, you were right, except that, in reality, I didn’t meet my Autumn at the end of the story. To be honest, I don’t even want to anymore, I just want my Summer back and for the rest of my life, I’ll wait here just incase she decides to change her mind.

Get Free. xx