I am writing my first confessional in my entire life. I believe writing this will get a lot of the demons off my back. It’s been a long hard time in teh last several months.

Confessions-
I’ve lied to everyone I love, I’ve stolen money and items from my family & employer.
I’ve cheated on my wife on several occasions, including sleeping with my best friends wife.
I’m on disability for post traumatic stress but the majority of the incidents I reported are ficticious.
I lust for women other than my wife. I have had sucidial thoughts in the last 24 hours. I won’t commit suicide but the thoughts are there.
I’ve maniupated my wife and loved ones on different occasions.
I lied about having job interview to spend a weekend having an affair. I spent a much needed money on the hotel and meals to have s** with a woman I met online.
I use s** to boost my self esteem. I’ve never been caught and I’m terrified I will be.

I feel like I am the worst kind of person and I am truely sorry for it. It has been a life time of unforgiveable things. I’m just trying to get them out. I’m likely to be here several times a week to just get it out.

I’m angry all the time and I don’t know why…. I’m hoping this will help.
I just need to get it out.