I have a friend, online. She’s amazing and a great friend. And could I love her, and I have no idea how she would feel about me. What it comes down to, is I’m happy that she’s my friend. And I can be content with that. But if she wanted me, it would open doors. I don’t know what I’d do. The problem is that if she actually saw me that way, which I have too low self esteem to believe she could. It couldn’t be. we live on other sides of the continent, and neither of us would want to move, even if we could.

So I just look forward to our infrequent visits, and our internet chats, that last hours, for three days a week. And I just hope that this feeling goes away, or at least weakens. Cause each day I’m in more danger of falling for her completely. Then, I couldn’t just be her friend. and one way or the other, it’d break us both.