i m********* and watch p***. I really need to stop. I promise myself i will NEVER EVER to it again. bless god above, and pray that this evil will never fall upon me again. I know its not bad and its “a natural part of life”. but i feel so dirty afterwards. I don’t like that feeling of guilt, and i need to stop. Im only a tween and i dont want to grow up too fast. i want to remain somewhat sweet and innocent. UGH. i dont want to grow up, and be an adult. I just want to stop this guilty feeling and be innocent again. I just kinda needed to let that out.