I just want to get these things off of my chest so I can start the new year off clean. My life isn’t bad but I still hate everything. I’m sad and depressed all the time and it s**** because I’m still so young. I don’t have anything to be upset over.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who cares a lot about me and has never done anything to hurt me. I’ve made a lot of new friends this year who are much better than my old fake ones. I’ve got a main role in a play that I’ve always dreamed of. But I’m still unhappy with everything.
I started cutting last year. The last time I did it was 2 weeks ago. A few of my friends know about it. I started starving myself recently. None of my friends know about it. But many have noticed my weight loss, my mom and boyfriend especially. I steal things every now and then. Not a whole lot. I’ve stolen money and small things from my friends’ houses that wouldn’t be missed.
I hate everything about myself and I’m afraid I’ll never be good enough. I’m sorry that I screw everything up and eventually push everyone away and that I couldn’t be a better person.