I’ve been considering breaking up with my boyfriend for a couple of months now. I’ve been too afraid to actually do anything though because I wouldn’t know what would happen next. I probably wouldn’t want to date for a long time but I’d worry about what would happen to him. He hates everything about his life and says that being with me makes everything worth living for. I’m worried that if I leave him, he’ll kill himself. He hasn’t explicitly stated that he WOULD but…I worry. I also might’ve built up his hopes by saying I wanted him to be my first, to marry him, and have kids with him. I felt strongly about this at the time, but if I love him then why do I get crushes on other people? I didn’t realize love could be so difficult when I said these things and now I feel horrible. I am afraid that I’ll be in a loveless marriage with him and that we’d get divorced and s***. I do not want to be the one to divorce him. His parents are divorced and they are practically the root of all his depression or anger. I don’t wanna do that to him. But I don’t want to lead him on and sacrifice my happiness for his because he deserves someone who is genuinely happy to be with him…and he deserves happiness. I just get so annoyed by him sometimes…and my family keeps on pushing us together, it seems. I just wish I had the courage to do what’s right…I’m just afraid of being wrong. I think I’d still want to be friends with him, though. I need help, though.