there are things about myself i just cant stand… i do stupid things when nobody is watching that would disgust them. everybody thinks im this wonderful person, but in jealous of other people, i m********* too much in my opinion but cant stop and i wish i could go back and undo the first time i ever did m*********. its like im addicted now and im not gay but i do it to gay p*** and i wish i could burn away that part of my mind