I have four main sources of guilt.

The first is having s** with prostitutes. I have done this too often when overseas.

The second thing is getting to know non-Western women on online dating sites, going to their respective countries and starting ‘relationships’ with no serious intent to follow through.

The third thing is that my recent relationship has been with a ‘Third World’ woman 25 years my junior. I don’t want to identify with that class of older men who go to those countries (e.g. Thailand) and find themselves a very young wife. But I find I’m being identified this way by others…. Long story, but you will get my point. Why don’t I just settle down with a woman from my own country, and my own age roughly? I feel like I’m breaking the rules of fair play. I feel pretty low, morally.

Lastly, I indulge in p**********. I don’t seem to be able to kick it. I’m not sure that it’s all that bad, yet I feel guilty about it.