im so disgusting

ok so stupid h**** teenager here, im also extremely depressed and have severe anxiety
i was watching p*** because of the h**** part and i just wasnt feeling it idk but if anyone has ever been all h**** or whatever they kinda know that sometimes you feel really guilty or think something you watched was stupid as hell and not s*** at all after you’re done but while you’re watching it you’re totally into it and oh my god i dont know what happened but i ended up watching a video (tw up ahead) of a dog eating a girl out and i came to that oh my god i feel so disgusting im going to try to stop watching p*** altogether this is so gross i hate myself oh my god i love animals and i would never do anything like that i feel disgusting and i feel like im going to hell im a sick freak help me please help me sort my thoughts i just feel horrible right now im so sorry i would never do that again