It is almost 2 am and I am googling how to fall back in love with my husband. I cry because I am not sure if all the effort is worth it. Our s** life is the WORST s** I have EVER had….the worst. And I am guilty because I avoid it….like the plague. Can’t we be happy and love each other without the horrifying 20 seconds of i**********? Itnis embarrassing for you and a complete waste of time for me….horrible let downs. Ugh….I am so frustrated. We have only been together for 4 years and married for 1. I love my husband….but I am not attracted to him. I feel like the worst wife ever.