I don’t know what to feel anymore. Even though I have a girlfriend, I still feel alone all of the time. It’s not that she doesn’t care but it’s that I feel alone. All of the time. And I’m always stressed out and cannot seem to find a way to manage my stress. Sometimes even the smallest, stupidest things will make me burst out into tears and sometimes into rage. I really only have one real friend and I feel it’s completely impossible for me to make new ones. I try on a constant basis to make small talk with people or get to know them but it feels like everything I say means nothing and I’m tired of feeling sad all the time. I want to feel good about things again. I only live with my dad and we never talk about anything, not even how our days are. And my mom lives an hour away and I barely see her. I’m always looking for more people to talk to but I’m so awful at holding a conversation and that turns people off completely from being anywhere near you. I’m so lost in my own mind. I need something.