( Every ‘I wish’ is a talking about a different person, btdubbs. cx )
I wish I could tell her I’m so sorry for something I didn’t do. I still feel horrible about it.
I wish I could tell her how much she means to me. I love being in her presense, that her smile, her laugh, her personality is just contagious. How whenever she gets depressed it tears me up inside to know how badly she’s hurting and that I can do nothing but stand by and watch.
I wish I could tell her how much she hurt me. That when I poured my heart out to her she rejected me, how I cried myself to sleep right next to her. How I trusted her with nothing short of my life and she broke that in a second. How much I miss her being my best friend.
I wish I could tell her how she lights up the room when she walks in, that her personality is amazing.
I wish I could tell her the things that I lied about, and that I’m so sorry for them. I only lied to impress her and felt terrible about them afterwards. I hate myself for being so untruthful towards my best friend and wish I could go back in time and alter my mistakes.
I wish I could tell her that I used to hate her, but that I let her back into my life without hesitation.
I wish I could tell her I miss her.
I wish I could tell her how gorgeous she is.
I wish I could tell her I’m sorry for not meeting up to her ‘expectations.’
I wish I could tell her that she’s an amazing friend. How beautiful she is in my eyes.
I wish I could tell her that I forgive her; that she hurt me so badly to the point of wanting to die, but that made me stronger than ever.
I wish I could tell her that she’s the only one for me. That she’s my first thought when I wake up, and that she can always make me happy no matter what. How just thinking about her makes my cheeks and stomach feel funny, and I would gladly die for her. That I’m the luckiest girl ever to be hers, and I just wanna be with her my whole life. That I love her. <3 And nothing could ever change that.