I get obsessed with people. I act normal on the outside but in my mind I think about them: how to help them, what to say to them, how to show them that they’re loved and cared for. It sounds healthy and friendly but it consumes me. Consumes me. I don’t know how to make it stop. I move from one person to the next, always girls. I’m not attracted to them s*******; I am a heterosexual female. But they won’t leave my mind. When I finally break away from one, I realize that I’ve been in a trans. I know this but I can’t help it next time someone comes along. It’s a horrible, draining pattern of inner torture and overthought. But the worst part is, I don’t know how to stop it.