I am an 18 year old girl in the USA. I have never had a boyfriend, never had a kiss, never held a guys hand. I’ve never been on a date. A guy has never told me i’m pretty, and no matter how I try my hair, my makeup, my clothes, I always look terrible. No matter how much weight I lose, the BMI chart tells me i’m obese. Im 6′ tall and have blonde hair blue eyes, and blonde jokes are endless.I love to play volleyball, butim not very good at it and I hate wearing the uniform because it’s tight on me.

I have a crush with a guy I really don’t even know. His name is Blayne. He is awesomely adorable, HOT even, but he goes to a different highschool than I do. We are both seniors in highschool and we are both single. We have everything in common, and even though I don’t know him that well, I really like him. We met at the Vet’s office, where he works. He talks to me a lot, and we always talk on Facebook. I want more than anything in the world to go out with him, and have him love me. I want him to hug me. I want to look pretty so he will like me. I want to be thinner so he will love me and want me as bad as I want him. I want to hold his hand. I want him to be my first kiss. I want to go on my first date with him. I want him to be my first love. I want to confidently introduce him to my friends and family, without thinking he’s gonna leave me. But before I can accomplish any of this, I have to get him to love me. I don’t know how to tell him I like him, and im afraid to get denied. I don’t want to be denied, but I don’t want to walk away from him either. It kills me whenever I see someone with their boyfriend or girlfriend. I stay up late at night hoping a shooting star goes by so I can wish for him to love me. That’s all that I want. I don’t want anything else. My birthday is coming up, and I don’t want to be lonely. I want to kiss my first love on the lips on my birthday, while holding his hand and hugging him. I want to get out of the friend zone and into the love zone. I want to finally get something on Valentines day.

I want Blayne to love me and be as absolutely love crazy over me as I am over him.
I want to have my first kiss with him, soon.
I want him to ask me out.
I want him to love me.
I want his love.
I want him.
That is all.
I want Blayne.