About a year ago I became very selfish. I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years so
I could “mess around” I was feeling upset with my life. Upset
That I’ve never experienced “dating” so I did the unthinkable, I left my boyfriend
And slept with the first guy I could find. This guy happened to be about 7 years older than me. We started dating, this went on about 2 months. The whole 2 months I was still in contact with my ex. Right after Christmas I broke up with my fling, and on New Years went straight to my ex and slept with him. For about a week or two I was only seeing my ex. But then something came over me, I started sleeping with my fling again and my ex. It took me about 1-2 months to realize what I was doing was wrong. But it wasn’t soon enought in march I found out I was 2 months pregnant. At this point I was back together with my ex. My immediate reaction was abortion because I had no clue who the father might be. My ex and I decided to keppp it, agreeing it would be his no matter what. So I never told my fling about the pregnancy. Now I’m 9 months pregnant, and I’ve been having nightmares of my fling showing up and trying to get involved. I do not want that. As it is everybody at work is talking about how excited tey are to see why color y baby comes out as (fling is a white guy ex is Mexican) I’m starting to feel absolutely horrible because I’m sure this baby is my flings since I was never on birth control and never used condoms with t effort 2 years and never got pregnant. I’m terrified and filled with guilt.
