it’s hard to do what is right. i know what i should do, but sometimes it is really hard. there are a few things that i just don’t want to do anymore, but i have a really hard time with. first off, i really need to lose weight. probably like 60 pounds. i’ve successfully lost weight in the past, but it seems that when i am stressed i just eat and don’t exercise. also, i really want to be more joyous as a father. i feel like i am a good dad, but it is not something that brings me joy like it used to. when i first became a dad i just loved it, but now i feel like it is more of a task. the last thing is that i struggle at times viewing p**********. i hate it and it feels disgusting afterward, yet i am still drawn to it. and i don’t ever want to view it again.
thanks for listening.
