I think I am still in love with my high school sweetheart. We have been apart now for almost 4 years and not a day goes by where I don’t think about him, he’s in my dreams almost every night. I am 23 now and live in a different state and live a completely different life but somehow my mind always goes back to him. I have been in countless relationships since are falling out in 2010 but not one of them has ever made me feel nearly as loved or wanted as Billy. We dated for almost 5 years and the plan was to get married and have kids but drugs choose a different life path for him. He was addicted to Crystal Meth and also had a terrible drinking problem and I always thought he would change for our relationship and he didn’t instead he left for a younger, thinner girl and he still kept his way until she destroyed his life worse than he did. But now he is married and has a son, and I know now that we will never be together again. I wish we could speak to each other but his wife is very threatened by me, even though I have done nothing to make her think that. Now that he’s clean and his life somewhat on track, I feel jealous that our relationship wasn’t enough to fix what was wrong. How can you spend 5 years of your life with someone and walk away like it was nothing?
